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11.06.2003

Haha....I totally forgot there was a practice for the item we're going to put up for Ms.Quek. I was still sleeping until 9:40...then I realised that there was Maths at 10. I think I set the record for the fastest shower. Shows how much of a pig I am!
Ms.Wong really hates me & Jeanette man. I mean, she just came up to us and started picking on my work. Stupid woman lah.... looked at every single teey-weeny detail and found the tiniest mistake. I seriously wanted to shoot her...kick her... hahax. Jeanette says I should control my violence. I think she's right. I keep thinking about slapping people (ie...cows, nairs for constantly skipping choir prac.) ...

*sigh*...my friends have OBS tomorrow!!! I ALSO WANNA GO!!! It looks like so much fun! URGH! I wish I was back there. They're going trekking, canoeing, and yeah, digging up holes for shitting...bathing in the river! I WANNA GO!
Life is so unfair! Tomorrow I'm going to be stuck in the bloody classroom and forced to listen to Ms.Wong drone on .... she's really such a pest.
Listening to Iris now.... it's a pretty old song, but somehow I still love it. Real nice lyrics...
I wish all the cows and annoying pigs would just disappear from my left. JUST GET OUT! I'm so sick of them. QUIT TALKING TO ME AS IF YOU KNOW ME. QUIT BEHAVING AS IF WE'RE GOOD FRIENDS. QUIT ACTING LIKE YOU THINK I LIKE YOU BECAUSE IT'S PRETTY DAMN OBVIOUS I DON'T. Someone told me today that they think they should be mourning because they didn't do as well as they expected. I was going to say, " Don't give me all that shit.." but then, I suddenly felt so envious of her. The problems she has in her lfe are so minor that a little thing like low grades would make her this upset. I know it sounds weird. But trust me, when you get to how I am, you'll know exactly how I feel. So I just ended up telling her she didn't doo all that badly and all that shit. I feel so damn bloody fke sometimes. I was really talking through my ass when I replied to her statement. I didn't even need to think of a suitable answer, because I'm just expected to sy something everyone memorises like , " Aww...don't worry, you didn't do that bad. I'm sure you'll improve. Just work harder kayz??"

I really hate myself sometimes. Hate myself for turning into a superficial bitch with peanuts for brains and a shallow character. Yeah, I gave up watching a serial because the guy whom i thought was so HOT at first became poor.... hahax. Shows how bad I am.... WHY????? too many questions...too little time.
Uptown Girls really got me thinking. I remember the one line that the little girl of 8 said... "It's a harsh world...." and I was thinking, WHAT THE HELL WOULD A LITTLE TWERP LIKE YOU KNOW??? but that line really meant so much to me. It was too true. What I realised was that they were trying to tell everyone how harsh and competitive this world is... even a little girl would say it so matter-of-factly that this world is harsh. How about the rest of us??
GEEZ! WHY THE HELL AM I ANALYSING A BLOODY MOVIE??? JUST WATCH IT AND BE A DITZY LITTLE GIRL AND SAY, " THAT WAS SUCH A NICE MOVIE....AWW THAT LITTLE GIRL WAS SO CUTE. THE ENDING WAS SO (blah-dee-blah)..." MY LIT CELLS ARE REALLY BURSTING OUT! *sigh*...see how sad I am....
This called " wu ke jiu yao"....

Jaclyn, you're crazy....
Jaclyn is really sad...

^jac
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