11.26.2003

Just got back from watching Hidden Track...dumb movie. The only part worth watching was the last 5 minutes where Jay Chou came out..hee!!!
My mum's b'day today, spent all my money getting her a prezzie...now I'm so B-R-O-K-E!
I'm given up on feeling depressed...it's healthier being happy... I don't constantly think about death anymore...nor do I feel so worthless....
I've decided. No point making myself so miserable. I'll last longer putting on a facade and always making myself seem like a happy gurl who has no worrie, no sadness.
I'll be more likable that way. Not so cynical or bitchy. After all, aren't those sweet & innocent looking gurls always more likable?
I feel like a fly on the wall, watching everyone's every move, and no one even knows that I exist. Either that or they want to smash me into pieces for being such a pest.
Unwanted. Undesirable. UNFAIR. Undecided. Unhappy. Unbelievable. Unsightly.

Unwanted - That's me...
Undesirable - My bitchyness
UNFAIR - Life
Undecided - My fate
Unhappy - How I feel
Unbelievable - My thoughts
Unsightly - My behavior towards life

I'm back to being sad again. That was fast. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!!?!?
I'm sick.
So Tired.

^jac
01:19

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