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12.31.2003

My New Year's Resolutions...

- To Quit being such a bitch... ( am I really?)
- To be kinder and more understanding towards animals... (cows mainly...)
- Quit behaving like a manic-depressive...in other words...be H-A-P-P-I-E-R
- Stop dreaming about sleeping for the rest of my life...
- I will not kill Ms.Wong...I will not even try to harm the old lady...
- To be kind to other people, no matter how annoying they are...
- Stop resorting to violence whenever I'm pissed...
- Learn from my past mistakes?? (man, that's so cliche...)

I think all that's already too much for me to handle... I'm stopping here although the list can get much, much longer...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

^jac
06:29

12.29.2003

I'm getting pretty sick of everything...
My annoying neighbours and their kids who just won't stop wailing...
(it's like a funeral's going on next door 24/7)
The stoooooopid old woman across the street who always wakes me up with her OFF-PITCHED singing! I almost went across to throttle her but I was controlling myself...I shall not be cruel to animals...URGH!
Then there's this real annoying dude who keeps screaming his head off at 3 in the morn...
Losing sleep is the norm for me...
Oh yeah, been watching this really cool serial...went to the vcd store and went crazy!bought Xi Jie Shao Nian and Qiang Wei Zhi Lian...

That's a pic of Qiang Wei Zhi Lian...it's super nice!!! hahax...

Anyway...my mind's pretty much soup by now... don't know why...
Too much of the old woman's horrible singing?? Maybe...
Stress?? Likely...
PMS??...naahh
I'm lost...

I'm just still living in the past... I'm not willing to let go of anything... I'm so scared...
I'm not going to tell anyone to leave me alone anymore...'cuz I AM alone...I'm scared..

Potato Soup...
Clam Chowder...
Chicken and Corn...
Mushroom Soup...

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING!??!?!

^jac
02:35

12.25.2003

The Paintbrush
I keep my paintbrush with me, Wherever I may go.
In case I need cover up, so the Real me doesn't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me; Afraid of what you'll do.
I'm afraid you'll laugh or say mean things,
Afraid I may lose you.
I'd like to remove all the layers,
To show you the Real True me
But I want you to try to understand.
I need you to like what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll remove the coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts,
To let the real me show.
Now that my coats are all stripped off,
I feel bare, naked and cold.
And if you still find me pleasing,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
O need to save my paintbrush though, And hold it in my hand.
I need to keep it handy in case someone doesn't understand.
So please protect me Dear Friend, And thanks for loving me true.
And please let me keep my paintbrush with me,
Until I love ME too.

^jac
22:24

I'm back to being the same old me again...
a.k.a : depressed, tired, cynical, bitchy, pissed, lost to the world....
yeah...that's definitely me... The Christmas sprit didn't really wear off me... it only lasted 2 days...that's not fair! Don't they have something that'll last a little longer?!
I'm bored to tears!!!!!!
Just watched an extremely lame show...the lead was eating flowers after his girl died...I see no link....nevermind.

Just found another pic of me when I was young...

I look like such a doofus.... secretly talking on the phone...
I don't remember ever being so happy....hmm...weird...

^jac
18:46

12.24.2003

eheheeez...I'm in a great mood!!! Christmas!!! The party last night was great...never had so much fun in a looooooong time!!
Everything was just perfect~
I can't wait for Christmas next year again!!!
Geez...what's wrong with me!?!??!

^jac
18:40

12.17.2003

I'm back to blog!!!
Watched the third and final part of Infernal Affairs yesterday...dang ... it was gD!!!
Got tickets for LOTR... but I suddenly don't feel like going at all... hahax...
I'm getting quite sick of Orlando Bloom and all that crap...
The good news is, I'm practically done with my Christmas shopping...now I just have to find time to send Christmas cards ... hmm...hassle hassle...
Was trying to send some of the cards yesterday, and I just needed to write airmail on the envelopes but I didn't have a pen. So the obvious thing to do was to borrow right?? Then so my sis asked the guy behind us, and he gave us a weird smile like we were gonna rape him or something...geez...then he said he didn't have one. Asshole ...there was a huge pen sticking out of his pocket...
Doesn't even know the proper way to lie...

Pig...

Jaclyn wants to shove him down the toilet bowl...

^jac
21:35

12.15.2003

changed my blog song again...

ehehez...now it feels like Christmas...

^jac
00:40

12.13.2003

I just met with some Thai friends... they're very....special...
dang, I got whammed on the shoulder real hard...She was like, "HI!!!" ...(wham across the back)...one word...ouch! ehehez.
I feel like such a bitch, dunno why though. Is it 'cuz I have a cyanical comment to make about everyone/everything?? Maybe it's 'cuz I'm just feeling so bloody sick...
I'm so tired. That's one word I've been using a lot lately. Tired. TIRED TIRED TIRED...got me?
Listening to 3 Doors Down - Here Without You now... my latest fav song. It's real good.

Life's a bitch.....

^jac
01:30

12.11.2003

I feel like such a fool. Bloody fool. No life, no dreams, no future. Believe me, I'm just a darn fool who has nothing. That's it. That's all I am.
No matter how hard I try, nothing ever seems to work for me. I'm just that close to giving up. Scares me how some people never stop. They can never be satisfied. There's no limit for them. I'm really going to give up and collapse right here.

Read a friend's blog awhile ago... she penned down her entire intenary for the day, I got bored reading it. It's just me I guess, since everyone else seems to think her blog is "da bomb" and I just simply raise my eyebrows and go, "huh?"
All right, I won't say more about that 'cuz it's making me sound like a bad person. Which I'm not....I ~~think~~...hope...

ehehez...

I'm beginning to realise how pathetic some people can be. How desperate they are to gain popularity. Geez, I'd like to tell them to getalife dammit... I've still got more Christmas shopping to do...ahaha...can't wait, I'm all excited about shopping.
I'm annoyed with muself though. Can't seem to decide on what to buy. I see something I like, then decided against buying it. Then I walk around the entire shopping mall looking for the perfect gift...only to return to the placw I started, and buying the gift I saw right at the beginning. Annoyed.

I'm written enough for the day... ciao peeps~

^jac
00:45

12.09.2003

I took another "What's Your Personality Disorder?" test...and it still tells me that I'm a narcissist...how nice, I'm self-centered and I'll die old and lonely....

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%

This thing scares me... geez

^jac
06:06

12.06.2003

My thigh muscles ache like shit, the bruises on my legs are turning green...yep...
That's the state I'm in now. Surprisingly I'm still feeling very HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPY!
ehehehez...
I'm getting all hyped up about the SEA Games swimming!!! MARK CHAY IS SOOOOO BLOODY HOOOOOTTTTTT!!! URGH! Boy was I dissapointed when they didn't show much of the men's swimming...but I was practically drooling while I saw the highlights...
Singapore has 7 golds....I'm so happy...bloody bloody happy!!
Stupid ole Vietnam has over 20 Golds just cuz they added all those weird Wushu stuff that only Vietnamese have heard of...so yeah...They can get flushed down the toilet bowl for all I care...
ehehez...I'm being mean now!!!
This is the first time I'm being so patriotic...must be because I've lived away for so long... I can still remember the last SEA games which were held in KL and I went to see the swimming and badminton!!! AHAHAHAHAHA that was so good.
Okay...I'd better stop blabbering or no one would wanna read my blog anymore.

Jaclyn will stop here now.

^jac
21:00

Been a looooooong time since I've blogged....I bet you've all missed me!!! ehehez...
Well, I went shopping to see what I could get for everyone, but I ended up buying loadsa stuff ( that's me, the shopaholic...) for Christmas...and when I came home, I was like...WHY DID I BUY THAT??? But I managed to come up with a reason for everything I bought 'cuz my mum was watching me unpack all my stuff....
I'm feeling much better these days. Decided to forget everything that happened...
hey..I'm a happier person now.

And that feels really great. Okay... I just talked to someone I really really HATE online... and well, that's too much to take so early in the morning since I've just woken up. Feel so sick now...urgh!

^jac
02:58

12.01.2003

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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^jac
18:48

Bloody Pervert. Why did he have to stare at me in that manner. Felt like digging his eyeballs out or poking them with a needle to stop him. But hey, it's a free country, what could I do about it. Bloody assole. What the hell man. Gave me such a disgusting sneer, wonder what he meant by that. If I hadn't glared so hard at him, he'd probably have carried on with his unconcealed staring, oblivious to the entire world. Just thinking about it makes me feel sick. Why are there such people on this planet. Feel like exterminating all of them. That dirty creep really made me feel like throwing up. Horrid creature. Leave me alone. What problem have you got with your eyes!??! Want me to screw them up so you can't oogle anymore. He had to give my sis such a freakin' cheesy smile that we both had to turn away or we wouldn't given him a black eye. Uncivilised pig. Keep your bloody eyes to yourself. Urgh. You make me sick.

That's what he is, a brainless, clueless pig. Hate 'em, he's a rare species, unusually stupid.

^jac
01:37

changed my blog song....

^jac
01:36