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5.27.2005

Here I am... successfully tanned(burnt?), throat hoarse from shouting & screaming, eyelids drooping and muscles aching...
Well, despite me saying all that... camp really wasn't all that bad. In fact, there was actually a teeeeeny fraction of a moment that I'd missed it. Missed all the mud, rain, lightning-fast showers, stuffy tents ... sure... maybe just a little. Kayaking was great... orienteering...I'd just sau that it was enough to suck out all the energy from me. The only enjoyment we got from there was crapping around with a certain G.I (gay instructor?) and howling tong hua as we trampled along. Fun eh?
Haha... ah well... I'm too tired to type

^jac
06:03

5.24.2005

Today's experience was truly an eye-opener. The guy who shook my hand till I thought it was gonna be dislocated...the same guy who tried to pull my pants down, the guy who actually pulled his pants down( I so do not wanna relive that... sore eyes man), all the smiles, waves and friendly pats... The Bishan Home for the Intellectually Disabled. What an experience I had.

well, it really wasn't as bad as I had expected it to be, but tiring nontheless. The Newater bit was easily-forgettable, and cleaning up ecp... let's just say it wasn't too long before we got and began to find our own entertainment. And I'd just like to forget the part where we got ditched for another group. Nice it wasn't. The real camp starts tomorrow, and to make myself feel better about it, I've been watching re-runs of the O.C... that's always the perfect medication.
Wish me luck!

^jac
06:12

5.19.2005

I just wanna say a big thank you to all those who've been so incredibly sweet today!!! * Thanks you guys... I know I've not been much fun to hang out with lately (the stress, the worries about my actions affecting my future) but you've all really made my day and put the first true smile on my face in weeks... I really needed that.
I've felt like this year's been a totally different one... it's only been a year and yet so much has changed. I hate sounding all cynical on such a day but I can't help but feel that these all don't ever last, no matter what promises we make, whatever we say... they all don't mean a thing especially when the crucial time comes. I guess I'm rambling... I don't even know what I'm saying anymore... ack...well... I guess not everything's changed about me.
All the cards about me being a year older and hence being more mature... I can' t help but laugh at all those.. The years are really catching up with me, and I'm not sure if I like that, I seem to have endless visions of becoming a old and cranky spinster.
All the unhappy talk makes me sleepy...

p.s---loved the balloon + prezzie you guys...it was really sweet and I should've guessed earlier when angzi brought me walking round the block...
p.p.s---thanx to all those who remembered... the well wishes all played a part in making my day

^jac
06:55

5.18.2005

The week's been pretty down so far...what with all the results and all the silly wits committments. Went for class com training yesterday... wasn't as bad as I'd predicted it to be... ehehez.. especially with all the geylang and chee-ko-pek talk...it all cracked me up. Was mk's birthday today... ahahaz... couldn't help but laugh non-stop whenever I looked at her... esp since I was constantly thinking about the dilemma she was in. I'm convinced that there's something wrong with me though... cracking up excessively, serious lack of sleep(hence the darkdark eye rings), bursting brain threatening to dispose of it's contents and being a total failure at practically everything. How great it is to be me.

^jac
02:41

5.13.2005

I guess you can never count on me to update frequently... ehehez.. all the tests, all those essays, all that work... they very nearly killed me. But I'm outta it alive and kicking but just drained of all my energy. It scares me that I can't even recall the last movie I watched.. which was probably eons ago...

I need some sleep

It can't go on like this

I tried counting sheep

But there's one I always miss

Everyone says I'm getting down too low

Everyone says you just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go

I need some sleep

Time to put the old horse down

I'm in too deep

And the wheels keep spinning 'round

Everyone says I'm getting' down too low

Everyone says you just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it goYou just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go

^jac
18:54

5.04.2005

A day off school!!! triple whoop!

^jac
05:36